Journey to the west

Leaving my beloved country again in 4 days.
I’m not too sure of what to feel right now. There is sadness in leaving. There is hastiness in wanting to start my final year and returning for good. There is regretfulness in being here at the first place. But there is joy upon discovering the recent epiphany. Syukran ya Allah.
In a nutshell, I’m having mixed feelings. But they say, after the rain comes a rainbow. O Lord, protect me, guide me, shed me some light towards the better and improved. Amin.