On that day, I wrote a
post about making happiness a choice. In the third paragraph I questioned myself, "What defines happiness and how does one get to it?"
I think I'm somewhat there. Not quite there yet, but almost. In the past I used to believe that happiness is when problems are absent. Funny, when did life ever give us a hall-pass?
So what is happiness to me? I don't want some cliche answers like "it's when you come home to your family." I mean, that's happiness alright but that doesn't answer the big question.
I found two answers.
One, having strong faith. Two, being free.
I never lose faith. It was more of a habit to say "I lost faith" in things I wanted to give up on but then I realize that I never actually do. Accept fate whenever something goes wrong. It takes time to accept them, of course (I'm no Wonder Woman!). But I have faith in Him and I have faith in what is written. I believe that when someone possesses solid faith, nothing will knock them down. You will be more rational, calmer, wiser, stronger, more tolerant to sadness and all that sums up to happiness. Those who have faith in something (i.e. fate, religion), will always find his or her way back, no matter how far one got derailed. I was at my low points several times, denying what I shouldn't, but I'm thankful for my beliefs and thank god, all is well and I'm happy again.
Being free is happiness. Yup that's extremely vague. In my context, it is when I am free from being hold back, free from feeling like I need to impress the people around me, free from negativity, free from toxic environment, free to pursue the good, free to make mistakes and make amends, free to be human. It sounds like gibberish talk but read again and you'll understand what I mean. When I say "free to make mistakes and make amends" doesn't mean you are free to do evil and call it a mistake. Stop beating yourself up over your shortcomings. You must understand that. There is always a room for improvement, and He is forgiving. So free yourselves.
When you free yourselves, you'll start to see great opportunities that lie ahead, like I am! I apologize for not being able to explain it clearly because man, I suck at it. But if you do get my point, high five!
That's happiness to me for now. Who knows, tomorrow lain pula? :-) Semoga esok lebih baik dari hari ini.
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